February

2000

1: Only Poetry Stops Rape

This was the first Amber log released to the public, and though it’s in a very larval state, there’s bits of the formula showing through. The victim this time had been boringly chatting with Amber for about twenty minutes and I had to think of some kind of excuse to get rid of him. Needless to say, I came up with a pretty damned good one. This log also introduces Amber’s father – it’s established early on that she lives with him, that he’s insane and he’s some sort of war veteran – usually Korea. We join this chat in progress, right before the excuse is given. Things progress from there.

luke_911_1: hey I know u their give me 5 to clare this up
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Fine, you have 5 minutes
luke_911_1: ok
luke_911_1: why did u log of was it something i said??
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: It is because I have to go!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Jeez!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I’ve gotta go get raped!
luke_911_1: did i offend u in any way
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No! No! Calm down!
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Okay? I really gotta go, my dad’s gonna rape me.
luke_911_1: so we friends then
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Ok!
luke_911_1: what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yes, we are friends!
luke_911_1: what u mean ur dad going to rape u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Rape, you know what rape is, right?
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He will have sex with me against my will
luke_911_1: u did it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Not yet, he’s waiting!
luke_911_1: who
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: My dad!
luke_911_1: u and ur dad u kidding right
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No! You said 5 minutes. I really gotta go!
luke_911_1: to do what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: To get raped, jeez dont you listen?
luke_911_1: what is it like
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: It’s terrible it hurts real bad!
luke_911_1: call 911 then
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: That’s only for fire!
luke_911_1: still call them call some body
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He’s my dad though!
luke_911_1: what u mean
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I can’t call police on my dad!
luke_911_1: why
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He’s my dad, who will take care of me?
luke_911_1: got a mum
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No
luke_911_1: where is she
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: In oregon somewhere, don’t know where
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I gotta go my dad is coming!
luke_911_1: tell me the thrught is it true
luke_911_1: is he relly doing that to u howmany times have he done it to u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: THIS IS AMBERS DAD
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: GO AWAY SO I MAY RAPE MY DAUGHTER!
luke_911_1: u freak
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WHO ARE YOU CALLING A FREAK?
luke_911_1: let me get my hands on u
luke_911_1: u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: SORRY! I LOVE YOU!
luke_911_1: what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I LOVE YOU LUKE 911 1 AND I LOVE MY DAUGHTER!
luke_911_1: let me talk to amber
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: NO!
luke_911_1: why
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: BECAUSE SHE IS BUSY! BEING RAPED!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I AM EVIL!
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I SEEK A BRIDE!
luke_911_1: what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: BRING ME A WOMAN TO BE MY BRIDE!
luke_911_1: why u do such a thing to such a nice girl
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: BECAUSE I AM HER EVIL FATHER!
luke_911_1: u distroying i nice girls future to please your self
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: YES I AM!
luke_911_1: what she say about it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: SHE SAYS STOP! PLEASE STOP THE RAPES!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WRITE HER A POEM AND I WILL STOP!
luke_911_1: what u do about it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: IF YOU WRITE MY DAUGHTER A POEM I WILL STOP RAPING HER
luke_911_1: about what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: ABOUT HOW BEAUTIFUL SHE IS!
luke_911_1: 1 line k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: NO! 10 LINES OR MORE.
luke_911_1: u mad man
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: YES I AM!
luke_911_1: can i talk to her now
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WRITE HER A POEM AND SAVE HER LIFE
luke_911_1: can i
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: POEM FIRST
luke_911_1: u nice u know why u talk like that
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WHY?
luke_911_1: why what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WHY HAVE YOU NOT WRITTEN A POEM?
luke_911_1: u herd me please ans me
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: YOU CAN CHAT WITH HER IF YOU WRITE A POEM
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I AM WAITING!
luke_911_1: u sweeter than suger softer than a rosers petal bueaty compared to a sun set at the beach looks like a perfect barby and smells like well i fresh picked rose
luke_911_1: so what u think
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: THAT WAS A GOOD POEM.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: HERE IS AMBER.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Luke?
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Thank you!
luke_911_1: u so funny u know
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Thank you so much it hurt so bad!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Did you write him a poem?
luke_911_1: what hurt
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He was raping me his penis hurt!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Ihank you so much!
luke_911_1: how could he do so and chat with me at the same time
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I am going to put you on my friends list
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Could you write more poems like that?
luke_911_1: ans me
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: It made him go away
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Oh I was under the table and he had me in the locks
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He does it all the time
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He likes to interrupt chats
luke_911_1: so how could hi rapr u and chat with me at the same time
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I was under the computer table tied up
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He has arm restraints I cant go anywhere
luke_911_1: u all was nakid
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No, he just pulled my panties off
luke_911_1: he takes off all ur cloth
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No, just my panties
luke_911_1: he takes of ur panths
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yes
luke_911_1: how long do he do it for
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Today u wrote a poem so he stopped before he finished
luke_911_1: what
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He usually takes half hour to finish but u stopped him so he pulled out and left
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He went out to the garage
luke_911_1: i say call the cops
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: You may be right
luke_911_1: i am shure
luke_911_1: how do u cope
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I cry a lot
luke_911_1: pray and ask god to take u out of this sisutation
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Ok, you are right
luke_911_1: u ok
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yeah. you saved me today
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Thank you!
luke_911_1: u still hurting can i do any thing to help
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: You already helped so much!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: with your poetry
luke_911_1: what u do in ur spair time
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I like luge
luke_911_1: what is that
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Sport
luke_911_1: what sport u play
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Luge! It is a winter sport
luke_911_1: is it cold
luke_911_1: now
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yes! You slide down ice
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: It is not cold now
luke_911_1: what u ware there
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: In luge? Or today?
luke_911_1: to
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I am wearing a tommy hilfiger shirt, my pants are on the floor with my panties, because of my dad
luke_911_1: well put on ur cloths
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Okay, just a minute
luke_911_1: u done
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yes, sorry
luke_911_1: u tell any of ur friends
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: They dont beleive me
luke_911_1: sorry
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: My dad is Deputy Mayor so nobody believes anything
luke_911_1: bye got to go good luck bye
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Bye! Thanks again for the poem! It helped a lot!
luke_911_1: wate
luke_911_1: so tell me what he does agen and how
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yhy do you want to know, it’s sick!
luke_911_1: a summary leave out what u want to
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He has arm clamps like in jail under the computer table
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He puts my arms in them with my butt in the air
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He stands and types while he does it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Rapes me
luke_911_1: and he undressses himsely and u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No! He just pulls my panties down and takes his penis out
luke_911_1: jeas
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: it hurts so much!
luke_911_1: i an so sorry for u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: You stopped him today though
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He is so crazy about poetry
luke_911_1: i will pray for u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Thank you
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I will pray too
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: To jesus
luke_911_1: u got any sis bro
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: No
luke_911_1: yes yes
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I wish I did
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: So he could rape them instead of me
luke_911_1: bye friend when would he try to do it agen
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Tomorrow but I will call the police before then
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Send me another poem just in case though
luke_911_1: please do and preay to jesus
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I will pray. You send the poem.
luke_911_1: u know jesue can save u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Jesus and poetry can save me and policemen
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Thank you so much
luke_911_1: u want jesus
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Thank you jesus
luke_911_1: he is so good
luke_911_1: u want to axcept him as us lord and saviour
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I do! I do!
luke_911_1: say this ok
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: ok
luke_911_1: dear god
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: dear god
luke_911_1: i am a sinner
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I am a sinner
luke_911_1: and have no one to turn to for help
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: GO AWAY I WISH TO RAPE MY DAUGHTER AGAIN!
luke_911_1: 5 min please with her
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: GO AWAY YOU ARE MAKING ME VERY ANGRY
luke_911_1: 5 min please sir
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: NO YOU HAVE MADE ME ANGRY BY CHATTING WITH MY DAUGHTER.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: THE ONLY THING THAT WILL MAKE ME STOP IS A 20 LINE POEM
luke_911_1: do 1 thing for me
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WHAT IS IT?
luke_911_1: repeate this
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: IT HAD BETTER BE A POEM.
luke_911_1: k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: K
luke_911_1: 2 min k
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: 2 MIN K
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: THIS HAD BETTER BE A GREAT POEM.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I AM RAPING MY DAUGHTER RIGHT NOW.
luke_911_1: dear god lord jesus i am a sinner and i turn to u fr help i axcept u are god and u died for me and rose agen on the thied day i ask u to come into my life come in and take controll of it i surrender all to u and for give me of all my sins and make me hole agen thank u lord
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: THAT DOESNT EVEN RHYME
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: THAT IS A TERRIBLE POEM.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: YOU ARE THE WORST POET EVER.
luke_911_1: say it please
luke_911_1: and mean it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: OKAY MAYBE IT WILL BE BETTER IF I SAY IT.
luke_911_1: where is amber
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: DEAR GOD LORD JESUS I AM A SINNER AND I TURN TO U FR HELP I AXCEPT U ARE GOD AND I DIED FOR ME AND ROSE AGEN ON THE THIED DAY I ASK U TO COME INTO MY LIFE COME IN AND TAKE CONTROL OF IT I SURRENDER ALL TO U AND FOR GIVE ME OF ALL MY SINS AND MAKE ME HOLE AGEN THANK U LORD
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: NOPE, STILL A TERRIBLE POEM.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I WILL CONTINUE RAPING MY DAUGHTER.
luke_911_1: its a pray
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I WANTED A POEM NOT A PRAY, CANT YOU READ?
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: DONT YOU CARE ABOUT MY DAUGHTER?
luke_911_1: yea that why i ask u to stop in the name of jesus
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I AM NOT STOPPING.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: ONLY POETRY STOPS RAPE.
luke_911_1: i bind all u demands in the name of jesus be gon
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: POEMS, PLEASE!
luke_911_1: why u doing this
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: BECAUSE IT FEELS GOOD.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: HAVE YOU NEVER RAPED ANYONE?
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: OR HEARD A WONDERFUL POEM?
luke_911_1: with ur doughter
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: YES.
luke_911_1: i know why
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: WHY?
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: IF YOU ARE SO SMART WRITE ME A TRULY GREAT POEM.
luke_911_1: u were abused when u were small who did it
luke_911_1: ur dad
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: TOTALLY UNTRUE. MY FATHER WOULD READ ME POETRY.
luke_911_1: who
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I WAS NEVER ABUSED.
luke_911_1: so why do u do it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: BECAUSE I LOVE POETRY.
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: DO YOU LOVE POETRY?
luke_911_1: not as much as u to rape for it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I DO NOT RAPE FOR POETRY
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I RAPE FOR SEXUAL PLEASURE
luke_911_1: i am going to call the cops if i dont get to talk to amber now and if u dont stop
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: OK, DONT CALL THE COPS JUST ONE SECOND
luke_911_1: what u doing now
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: STILL RAPING
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: JUST ONE SECOND WHILE I FINSH
luke_911_1: got to call the cops then
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: NO NO NO IM DONE! LET ME UNHOOK AMBER!
luke_911_1: let me talk to amber now
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Hey Luke
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Did you read him a poem?
luke_911_1: what did he do u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He raped me again
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: But he finished this time
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: He should go to sleep now
luke_911_1: in what way
luke_911_1: did he do it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Same way as always, with me under the table while he chats
luke_911_1: how does he do that
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I told you! He straps my arms down with my butt in the air!
luke_911_1: he site and do it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: no he stands
luke_911_1: sit
luke_911_1: how does he reach
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: My butt is right under the table
luke_911_1: at ur high
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: What? Why do you want to know this? Do you like hearing about it?
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I hate talking about it!
luke_911_1: did u call the cops
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I’m waiting for him to go to sleep
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I have to get off the computer to use the phone
luke_911_1: why do he like having intercouse with u
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I dont know!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: bye!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: You are a good person.
luke_911_1: goog luck
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: And you write good poetry.
luke_911_1: hey one thing
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: what?
luke_911_1: scroll u see the pray
luke_911_1: u see it
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yes, my dad was yelling it out loud when he was raping me
luke_911_1: please pray that pray
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: okay. i will!
luke_911_1: how old were u in the pic
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: 13
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: I gotta go call the police! Bye!
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Wish me luck!
luke_911_1: u still look the same
luke_911_1: k
luke_911_1: could u send me a reasent pic
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: That was only last year – I am only 14
luke_911_1: got any ather pic
a_m_b_e_r_4_e_v_e_r: Yes, I will send them tomorrow, I have to call police now!
luke_911_1: k bye